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I really do like the snow. RIGHT now I would be happy if it didn't snow again till next year! I know that is bad but where is my global warming?!? I am so glad I am not in Florida anymore because I love seasons but we have had snow 5 out of the last 6 Tuesdays and now 6 snow storms in as many weeks! WOW!! I was going to write more but I am too tired from being out all day in the snow and thinking about how I have to get up in the morning and shovel it again :( Boooo I am so not happy about that but then again hubby has to go to work so who else is there to do it? anyway if I can stay awake tomorrow might I just might have something more to say! (I actually have a lot to say but am way too tired to get the words out right and make any sense at all) I hope you all sty warm and dry unless your intention is to have fun in all this fluffy white stuff!! But doesn't it look sooo pretty right now?

what a month!

First had a wonderful Christmas and a great New year. I hope the rest of the year keeps going like this! I have my graduation date of August 21st but it will be here in NJ not in Arizona so I do not get to see my grandparents again this year :( I have not seen my family in Texas in over 5 years. That saddens me because I miss them all so very much. I have found a stronger attachment to God than I have had in many many years. I am finding a peace in myself that I have not felt in a long time and a new strength to take on new tasks and new endeavors. I am sitting here typing this and listening to the news and I have tears running down my face because of the great steps that the Gabrielle Gifford has made and it enforces my belief that God was there with those people in Arizona. I am not an overly religious person and while i do not find fault in those who are I know that I am not. I do not go to "church" as I have not found one that I am comfortable in. I do not make my daughter go to church and maybe that is not a good thing but I talk to her about God and Christ and the salvation that lies with Them. I have faults and I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination. I was recently or again called a know it all. I do not know it all or pretend to. I like to say that I know a little abut everything and everything about nothing. I love the snow and living in NJ I have had more than my fair share of it lately. I like the snow and it is pretty when it is sunny and the wind blows it around it looks like glitter! I am off on tangents today and I am not really organized in my thoughts tonight. I normally have something of importance to me to say tonight I do not. After my last post a friend of mine went back and read some comments I had posted when I was angry at a situation that had occurred. I feel horrible about it all and I wish I had never said them but I did. I deleted the comment and apologized. I know it does not make it right but I cannot do more than I have. I hope she finds it in her heart to forgive me and if not that she finds herself in better health and finds some happiness as she really is  great person who deserves so much more than life has given to her as of late. I am glad m brother in law is back with us today and can stay that way for a while. He is doing very well and the wound on his arm is about the size of a quarter now. This is amazing and everyday he has more and more use of his arm and more and more fine motor skills are returning. he can grip the plug for the cell phone between his thumb and the side of his forefinger with enough strength to pull the plug out! He has been lifting small objects (bottles and the like) and using the hand on the injured arm to open door knobs and car doors and the fridge! I love that he is healing as well as he is! i am tired of the cold weather as well. It makes me hurt and I am so not a fan of pain! Since I am not a fan of pain I am wondering why I joined the gym?!?! I had a meeting with a personal trainer last Thursday. I did much better than I had thought I would! I felt really good when I left the gym. I had a good ache in my legs and felt like I had done a decent upper body workout even though I did not feel it. The next morning I found out why they refer to this trainer as Satan. I woke up and could not move my arms at all!! I stretched before and after the work out and had no pain at any point. I finally make it back to the gym still having a hard time with my left arm and worked out again. I am having one of the worst backaches of my life and I am very frustrated that I cannot go to the gym and work out more. I am going tomorrow (Friday) no matter what. between the pain and the snow I feel like I have not been in the gym the way I should be. Satan the trainer says one year till I am in the shape I want to be in. I know there is no way that I will be where I need to be in a year. I did not get this way in a year and I do not expect to be where I should be in a year but I should be much much closer to it! I am still looking for a job and it has been a loooong time since I have worked. I want to work but I am also limited in what I can do and that makes it harder than it should be to find something. I think I am also afraid to work full time because of my classes. I seem to do so much school work right now that I am stretching thin to get it all done. I also have to have a bowel resection done soon and that not only scares me but makes it a little harder to find a job when you know that after the surgery you will be doing nothing for a few weeks if not a few months. I am sort of looking forward to getting the surgery done because I am so tired of this low residue diet. I miss my veggies and salads and fruits and whole wheat and grains and rice! I am tired of chicken beef fish pork and spaghetti, tired of mushy carrots and green bean so soft they might as well have been pureed. I want a big salad and croutons and I want an apple and grapes and pears and strawberries!! I really miss tomatoes and cucumbers and grrrr.... but it will all be worth it if I can have this surgery soon and then about 3 months later I can start adding back in the foods I have been banned from again! I hope that I never have to go through this again either. I did not realize just how life threatening my condition was when i was admitted to the hospital and I hope that I never have t be in that situation again. I am tired now and I hope that my sleep inducing sound waves send me off to la la land as easily as they have the past few nights. I love my android hone with all of its apps!!