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So it has been one of those time periods.... Nothing too bad just a lot of little things that seem to keep piling up. My sister had surgery on her foot/ankle about 2 1/2 weeks ago and I hate seeing her in pain like that. She is super sensitive to the pain meds and well they made her a little sick at first and never last long enough for her to even get some sleep. She doesn't like to take them and that does not help her very much either. I really feel bad that there is nothing we can do to ease her pain. Two weeks ago my daughter had to go in for a medication change. Her age and the side affects and the withdrawal symptoms from the last medication made it much safer to do in an inpatient setting. Most people would look at any inpatient admittance as a negative event. We are not. Granted she was feeling like she did not want to live but rather than acting on those feelings she talked to us and told us she felt like it was the medication not working rather than a true want to die. She struggles with suicidal thoughts and feelings and the medication not working properly for her lets more of those thoughts and ideas into her mind. Pretty scary as a parent but I can only imagine how it was for her. She did not act on those thoughts and urges but came to us and got the help she needed. I am so proud of her for that. Two years ago when these things really surfaced with her she would not have come to us. She would have acted on the thoughts. Maybe not suicide but other self destructive and self injurious behavior. She has come so far and we just cant tell her how proud we are of her enough. The problem with this whole thing though came in while she was in the hospital. The day before she was discharged some of the girls were goofing around and pushing each other around on couches as if the couches were sleds. Now because this is a psychiatric facility the couches are weighted and extremely heavy to prevent them being used by out of control patients as a weapon. Well the girl doing the pushing went askew and accidentally rammed the couch into my daughter's foot. It pushed her toes backwards. She told the staff member who was supposed to be supervising the girls. He did nothing about it. A little while later she went to him again about the pain. He very loudly (so all could hear him) told her that he has never in his life heard someone complain and whine so much about a stubbed toe. To go get some Tylenol from the nurse and go lay in her bed and they would get her some ice if she really wanted it. There was never a notation in her chart made of the incident. She called me a little while later and told me her toe was broken. I told her to get off of it and rest it and see how it felt in the morning. I know how bad a toe can hurt and felt bad but what could I do about it? The next day we picked her up for her discharge and I noticed she was limping pretty badly. She slid her foot out of her shoe and yes the toe was bruised and a little swollen but I did not see the underside of it. When we left we took her to  buffet for lunch which meant walking around. We then went to WalMart to get an oil change and her prescription filled. Yes I had her walking around WalMart with me. One we finally got her home she asked if she could go grab some coffee (or hot chocolate) with her friends and she would come right back. We said OK and when she wet to go get ready she practically crawled up the stairs. She slid down the stairs on her rear when she was coming back down and I made her sit and take off her shoe and sock and let me look at her toes and foot. I was soooo angry!! The whole side and bottom of her toe was almost black! The whole toe and at least half of her foot was swollen. I told her to call her friends and tell them she couldn't go with them she was going to the ER. Sure enough she was right the day before when she told me it was broken! I feel horrible I made her walk around on it. I felt even worse on Thursday when we went to the orthopedic specialist and found out that the bone is broken completely through and that if it shifts it will require surgery to fix. The brake is completely through the growth plate as well. Granted she is 14 and 6ft or slightly over and chances are her feet are done growing but what if they are not? The doctor feels I should call a lawyer and as do most of the people I have talked to. Every one feels there ia a case for negligence on the part of the psych hospital for not getting her checked out and for the lack of supervision that led to the injury. I am torn on this. If there is no lasting injury and she heals fine than what is the point? However what if it does not heal properly and she needs surgery and there are lasting issues? I do not want to wait to call a lawyer if it is too late but I also know that accidents happen. I would have made the same call not to take her to the ER that night. However I would not have embarrassed her and treated her like she was a pin in the butt. When every staff member I spoke to there said she was a laid back go with the flow and do what she needed to do to get home once her medication was changed type of patient, for her to go to someone and complain two or three times and get treated like that makes me more angry than the injury does! she is upset she is not allowed to do anything for the next six weeks or fear of displacing the broken section of the bone which can happen if she bangs it or even walks on it :( On to the next topic...  My friends father passed away recently. He had been fighting cancer for quite a while and his wife had just passed a few months ago. My friend, Eric, is a trooper and even had a few kind words and well wishes to offer my daughter in the midst of his own sorrow and mourning. I cannot even begin to pretend to know how horrible it has to be to loose a parent. However, I can understand and I feel horrible that he and his family is going through this. The memorial services are tomorrow and well this one will be hard. The other day a friends grandmother passed away. He was struggling for a short while and well just couldn't fight any more. My heart goes out to her family as well. I do know the pain of loosing a grandparent. I miss my grandmother so much sometimes and it comes out of nowhere. I do not think you ever real heal from loss it just gets easier to deal with. Next... I cant wallow in pain and sorrow for long :) While tomorrow is a sad day it is also a good day for me. I will see many of my Friend's tomorrow and while it is death that brings us together it is still chance to spend some time with people I don't get to see very often. Most of my friends have families and kids of their own now so it makes finding time to get together harder than ever. I think it is a sign of getting old when the people you spent everyday with you now really only get to see at weddings and funerals. I miss just being able to pick up the phone and say Hey you home? You going anywhere? and then following that up with I will be there in 10 mins. I have pizza and soda... getting there and spending the whole night playing monopoly or rummy or just sitting around and talking about everything or nothing at all. Even the crazy conversations "What was that? The dog? no the garbage. no my dad fell out of bed. What the dog fell out of bed no the garbage. the garbage fell out of bed? Nooooo the dog knocked over the garbage and my dad fell out of bed" or however it went. Sitting back and watching your little sister snort crushed smarties 20 years before we knew that this way of sugar intake could actually make you high. then as we got older it was sitting around and crying over this boy or that one and the arguments that went on because one friend was no dating the others ex boyfriend or some other crap and well you always felt stuck in the middle because you love them all. I miss those days but at the same time am glad they are gone. just about our whole group of friends is married with children now and hose that aren't I'm sure are not far behind!
I just want to bring something up here. I believe in God and I believe that Jesus Christ is my saviour and died for my sins and for my salvation. If I post about my beliefs and post on my facebook wall bible quotes or whatever I feel like posting I am not asking you to take on my beliefs as your own (not opposed if you want to) I just ask that you respect by beliefs as I respect yours. I may not agree with them but I respect them just as I would expect you to respect mine.
Well I have rambled enough have a great day or night!
Well I guess I have rambled on long enough hope you all have great days and nights!

cell phones, cell phone service, making money from a cell phone?

      I love my cell phone. My cell service leaves something to be desired from time to time. I never thought about it much before we moved into this place. I often have little to no service in my house. I end up having to use my wireless calling in my home. No matter the reception I receive I never thought that cell phones could make me money! I know that they sure cost me a lot of money. Apparently that could be a thing of the past! There is a work from home company that allows you to earn free cell phone service and income from teaching others how to use the system! Learn more about this program! Good luck!