mony money money

Ever have the days were you wonder where the money to pay your bills is coming from? I feel like that most of the time. Money is the root of all evil in my life. I feel like if the money were there most of my problems would go away. How do people survive? Rent, gas, electric, car insurance, gas for the cars, and ugh the credit cards! I am glad that I don't have a lot of them, but the payments still stink. I hate credit card debt. No matter what you do you, unless you pay in full, you loose money. The interest rates taxes fees and surcharges add up to way more than the purchase originally cost. Don't even think about if your payment is late! I am tired of "robbing Peter to pay Paul". I found a site quite by accident actually, PayingPaul.com . This site helps to link up people with debt consolidation companies. There are even special programs for active military outside of the United States. It looks like this site mostly is for help with credit card debt. I am sure they have other help like for bills and loans but it seems like all of America has credit card debt of some kind. This site is worth the look if you are looking to consolidate debt and stop robbing Peter to pay Paul!

sad sad day

     Today (well yesterday now) we learned of the death of a close friend. Peggialmalinn (AKA: Rayne or Peggie or Peg) passed away over the weekend. Cremation was Tuesday and there were no services. The circumstances surrounding her death are not completely clear yet. Rayne was Mike's girlfriend for a short time. They remained friends and her and I became quick friends. She was often a person I turned to who could listen to me an shed some light on why some one did some of the things they did. She helped to make some sense of a sometimes insane world. She gave me some hope when all I felt was despair. I fell like a big part of me is gone. I am so heart broken for her mother. A few weeks ago Rayne's grandfather passed away and then with her passing this past weekend her mother has had so much taken from her. My heart hurts to just think about loosing my father and daughter so close together. I just am praying for strength for her because that is the only thing I can think of that could possible help her right now.  Rayne's best friend is a girl I love to death. Tiffany is an awesome person whom would do anything for those she cares about including putting her own neck on the line if need be. Tiff and Rayne recently had a falling out that we all thought would have been remedied by now. Tiffany is so distraught because the last words between them were harsh to say the least. She is worried that rayne may not have known that she loved her because they had been fighting. the truth is that they both missed each other. Rayne never said it in so few words but she always asked me if i had talked to her. She asked more than once if i was sure she was OK. I wish I could have told Tiff that Rayne was OK but I couldn't because I didn't know for sure. I am going to miss my friend. Tiff will miss her to the extreme as much as they were friends they were more than that. I tried to tell Tiff that love never dies. It is always there it changes and grows and can sometimes seem like it is gone but it is always there. Rayne knows how much Tiff loves her. She knows how much we all love her. I think that I will have another someone to watch over me and guide me. I know that with all she had going on with herself that all of her problems are over and there is no more pain of any kind for her but the pain here with those of us left behind is not easy to handle right now. My heart hurts for her mom and for her family as a whole, for her friends and for all the lives she touched. Regardless of whatever choices she made she was a beautiful and caring person and I will always remember her as that! I hope that where ever you maybe you are looking down on me and smiling! I will miss you my friend until we meet again!

Php programer??

Well we all know that I troll the web regularly.a few minutes ago, while job searching I came across a site that must have been miscategorized. I was looking for my field (customer service, medical assistant, EKG, phlebotomy, or entry level psychology work) and I found a site for those looking for a PHP programmer jobs. I had no idea what PHP was so I looked it up. Seems pretty cool! I am not sure if there is a difference between what a PHP developer and a PHP programmer do but this site allows employers to list PHP programmer and developer jobs. I know a lot of you out there are working in computers and since I found out that PHP is used to create web pages, and I know at least one of my friends creates web pages, that I would share this. I did not take the time to look into where the jobs are but I figured everyone can search for themselves. I also know that sometimes freelance work is done from home. As I said i did not take time to really look at the site just clicked around a bit. from what I can tell if you are looking for a PHP programmer or developer this may be an inexpensive way to find one. I know some of you own a companies and maybe you need something like this for your business. I don't know but it seemed really cool so I thought I would share it!I found the site easy to decipher and actually very well set up for a job board type site! Happy Hunting!!

Happy valentines day!

Happy valentines day to all.... Hubby tried to take me to Red Lobster 2 1/2 hour wait for a table. We told them they could keep their table and went to TGI Fridays. told 20 minute wait, waited 30 mins had an excellent meal then they tried to kill us with nuts....it happens I heard our server tell them NO NUTS and yet the dessert came out with nuts...then they couldn't remake the dessert because all the other brownies were loaded with nuts... the place ran out of ribs and shrimp and wow so much. Other than dessert which one we got up we were glad we didn't get too full from dinner, it was great! So since today was great wondering what kind of curve ball tomorrow will bring :/

oh where oh where has my warm gone??

     I am sitting here freezing and sick. I keep wondering why I moved back to NJ from the liquid sunshine of Florida. This year we have already had 57 inches of snow and 3 inches of ice. We were with out power for more than 10 hours. I have broken two shovels an laid a million pounds of salt already. Now they are telling me that we have more snow coming tonight into tomorrow (Friday-Saturday) and then more snow Tuesday and then Thursday. My daughter has had more snow days this school year than she has had all the years combined. My husband has been complaining about the snow but he is yet to have to shovel it! It makes me dream of warm weather again. I was looking at warmer climates to move to and somewhere I have never been. California is just about the only warm place here in the US that I have not been to. I started looking in and around California. San Diego is beautiful! the climate is warm there are beaches and so many other wonderful things to do! I am not sure if I would ever move completely across the country from my family but right while surrounded with mile high piles of fluffy white crap it is so very tempting. One of the things about Sand Diego that caught my eye is the San Diego Zoo. I know people who have been there and they have deemed it one of the best experiences of their life.  I have been looking into maybe at least visiting San Diego before I would move there and right now moving there is not an option but a very nice thought :). I wondered what would i do with my time if I did move there. San Diego has tons of museums, malls, beaches, parks, nightlife, shopping, and just about everything you could ever want to do including amusement parks and a whole slew of things for kids too.  I wish I had so much to do here! Why I think the only thing San Diego is missing is snow!! Oh wait that is what made me think about moving in the first place!!

30 degree heat wave!

I just had a little bit of a funny interaction with my cousin who lives 1700 miles away from me. I live in NJ she is in Texas. She posted something saying that they were having a heat wave and it was only 30 degrees out. I told her it is the same here and i have my windows open! This is true it is 30 degrees out and I do have my windows open. Is it warm enough for this not really but I am tired of being sick. Germs and all the little crawly things we can not see love the heat and them love to get inside us and make us sick. So I try to open my windows and air it out as much as I can tolerate it. I try to wear more layers and keep my house a little cooler to try to not breed those little creepy crawlers. Now that I am sick I am even worse about opening my windows every day and trying to stay warm with out making everyone else feel like they are in a sweat box! I just want to know where my global warming is!

my kitchen is sooo small!!

My last post about not tasting my food made me think about how small my kitchen is. I would love to decorate it and make those decorations functional. I was thinking about how many different spices I use when I cook and how I feel like I can never find them easily because they are up in a cabinet. I think I need a spice rack! I have found all kinds of spice racks. There are ones that spin, ones that hang, some that even fold. I found some made for closets and some that are very pretty. I am looking for a wall spice rack that is not too frilly and that is not too big. I have a kind of country taste and really like things that remind me of being out doors. I found a spice rack that I likes it has leaves  and scroll work but it was a really awful shade of green and would not match anything in my house. I was at a friends house and fell in love with  spice rack she was using in her bathroom to organize her daughter's make up and hair stuff. I asked her about it and she told me she made it. Strike two! I tried to look on line but I found the spice racks to be either ugly or too high tech for me. Doesn't anyone have a kitchen spice rack that I will fall in love with and isn't a one of a kind? I think I just found a Christmas list idea for this year :)

being sick

I am sooo tired of being sick. I cook and the potatoes taste like the green beans and the green beans like the chicken. I can not tell them apart because I can not smell them at all! I could have eaten the dog food and would not have known the difference (well the dog food is crunchier than my food so maybe I would have). I have had people tell me all different things to try to get rid of this cold: eat garlic, drink tea, kepi it bland, and spice it up. I love the ideas and I really am grateful but the only thing that cures a cold is time. Yes fluids help but not to flush it out. When you have a cold fluids help to keep the mucus thinner for ease of draining. The more you drink the thinner it is. I wish there was a way to get over this cold already. The coughing is terrible and my throat has been bleeding because it is raw from coughing. I do not get sick often but when I do it is a doozy! I guess I should have expected this since it has been months since I had even a sniffle. Anyone know how to cough and not hurt your throat? Can't beat it but don't have to suffer needlessly! And yes I have cough drops cough medicine and even honey and lemon :)

Locker nostalgia

I remember when I was in school there were tons of lockers! We had a locker for everything! One for books one for coats one for gym. there were lockers in the science room, the gym and then another set for the sports teams. The trainers room had lockers for his supplies. When I was real little our cubbies were even lockers! I think the only place we didn't have lockers was in the cafeteria! I remember our gym lockers being very narrow and never having enough room for our gym stuff and our other school stuff. I hated the wooden locker room benches that always seemed to be splintering and I know I did not want to sit on them for fear i would get a splinter in a place I would never have let the nurse remove it from. I hated my regular locker because it was never wide enough to fit my coat and all of y books had to be on an angle to fit. I remember one year I never even bothered to learn my combination and did not use the locker even once that year. I was in my daughters school recently and man have the lockers come a long way! The are more spacious and have shelves!! Man am I jealouse! I think that if they ever put her school lockers for sale I may have to buy one!