sad sad day

     Today (well yesterday now) we learned of the death of a close friend. Peggialmalinn (AKA: Rayne or Peggie or Peg) passed away over the weekend. Cremation was Tuesday and there were no services. The circumstances surrounding her death are not completely clear yet. Rayne was Mike's girlfriend for a short time. They remained friends and her and I became quick friends. She was often a person I turned to who could listen to me an shed some light on why some one did some of the things they did. She helped to make some sense of a sometimes insane world. She gave me some hope when all I felt was despair. I fell like a big part of me is gone. I am so heart broken for her mother. A few weeks ago Rayne's grandfather passed away and then with her passing this past weekend her mother has had so much taken from her. My heart hurts to just think about loosing my father and daughter so close together. I just am praying for strength for her because that is the only thing I can think of that could possible help her right now.  Rayne's best friend is a girl I love to death. Tiffany is an awesome person whom would do anything for those she cares about including putting her own neck on the line if need be. Tiff and Rayne recently had a falling out that we all thought would have been remedied by now. Tiffany is so distraught because the last words between them were harsh to say the least. She is worried that rayne may not have known that she loved her because they had been fighting. the truth is that they both missed each other. Rayne never said it in so few words but she always asked me if i had talked to her. She asked more than once if i was sure she was OK. I wish I could have told Tiff that Rayne was OK but I couldn't because I didn't know for sure. I am going to miss my friend. Tiff will miss her to the extreme as much as they were friends they were more than that. I tried to tell Tiff that love never dies. It is always there it changes and grows and can sometimes seem like it is gone but it is always there. Rayne knows how much Tiff loves her. She knows how much we all love her. I think that I will have another someone to watch over me and guide me. I know that with all she had going on with herself that all of her problems are over and there is no more pain of any kind for her but the pain here with those of us left behind is not easy to handle right now. My heart hurts for her mom and for her family as a whole, for her friends and for all the lives she touched. Regardless of whatever choices she made she was a beautiful and caring person and I will always remember her as that! I hope that where ever you maybe you are looking down on me and smiling! I will miss you my friend until we meet again!