Another day still without a dollar...

I HATE BEING BROKE!! I will be glad when I am done with some more of my schooling so that I can work in a job that pays more than minimum wage and where at least I may be helping someone at some point. Now I am looking at a government freeze on my hubby's and daughter's benefits and wondering if they do this how we are going to get by until they restore benefits to them. I have been taking every mystery shopping assignment I can and every survey I can and anything I can to try and make some money. Any ideas on anything else I can really? I have to watch how much time I spend doing these type of things because i still have to make sure there is enough time for school and taking care of those ho need to be taken care of. 
         On a different note my father in law had a stroke about a month ago he is doing well right now and working towards doing great, my daughter graduated from her  program, my brother in law is back with us for now as he may have lung cancer... I am almost done with my associates degree I am in week 5 of 9 of my last class!! Graduation ceremony is on Aug 21st  I am real excited and just cant wait! Just found out  friend of mine was diagnosed with lupus today. While i know that is a hard diagnosis and she must be scared and worried it is manageable. I wish her the best of luck and hope she knows that I here for her even though I am so far away my ears work real well and shes not sooo far that if she needed me that I couldn't get there... glad she has a boyfriend that seems to be doing everything she needs for her right now. It is about time she has found someone who treats her the way she has always treated everyone else. Now if she will just slow down and take the time she needs to heal and get her condition under control... i was watching ice road truckers last night and it made me think of tony. I saw them do an old truckers trick with ethanol in the tire and i thought wow I gotta ask tony if he ever did that and I started to cry. funny how you can miss someone you almost never saw when the opportunity to see them at all has been taken away from you. In short appreciate the people you have in your life. make time for them all even if it is just a small amount, you will cherish those times when those people are no longer there to make new times with. that sounds so cliched but it is so true. take time for the friends and family that you have because tomorrow they may not be there!

here we go again

     SOOOOO much is going on that I am surprised that I am even able to post anything! My hubby has finally gotten on some new meds and while they are not the ones we were waiting for he is staying awake for the most part. He was prescribed the stimulants to stay awake but his meds manager for his bipolar changed his meds so he is not taking the stimulant unless needed. I am a little upset that it took over two years for them to change his meds after we had all said something had to give but what is done is done and we cant change it now. time to move forward. My daughter is almost doe with her program now she has been in this 6-9 week program for almost 5 months and she is now like a different person. I feel like I have my litle girl back well mabe not but it s sooo much better than it has been in the last few years. i am almost done with my associates degree. As of right now I have 6 weeks and 3 days left untill I finish (aug 28th)but there are only 5 weeks and 3 days untill graduation (aug 21st). I am pretty excited. this is a huge accomplishment for me. I really never thought that I would ever go back to school and get a degree no less looking forward to staying in school and get another and then a masters and even a doctorate. I know this will take time and I might have about another 10 years of school to get through before I get to that point but I relly want it. I mean 10 years sounds like a lot of time and true it is but think back over the last 10 years and you most likely will find yourself saying where has the time gone? That seems like it was yesterday!! 10 years ago my daughter was 3 and I feel like I can remeber every day and onder where that time went. 15 years ago I was still hanging out with my friends and living it up as we thought we should. I can reember going to Rocky Horror every friday and  sleep overs and doing the things we knew we shouldnt be but being young enough not to care. I dont know why it all seems like it was just the other day. Yes I do because time is relevent. Sit at the doctors office for 3 hours wehn you dont feel well or be at home sick and fll asleep for 3 hours and youwill know what I mean. Just like waiting for the last bell to ring at the end of the school day that last  inute time seemed to go backards instead of forward. But be one minute before curfew and the time seems to be going twice as fast (still no excuse for being late getting home young lady!!) but 10 years is a large chunk of time. If I do not do it then i will always wonder what if I had. Then again 10 years is over in no time at all and then I have what I have already set the foundation for and can use for the rest of my life! Enough rambling off to bed many cars to work on tomorrow and never enough timein the day to get them all done... See time is relevant!!