KIDS KIDS KIDS and friends

OK so I love my daughter and I love most of her friends but there are some that just freaking drive me crazy!! Like for instance one of them stopped by today right now and I told him that Macie wasn't here but he was welcome to wait for her since she was at the store. Well it has been almost an hour and no offense I am not made to entertain nosey 13 year old boys!! I think he touched or asked about every single item in my room! I don't mind but when i say no or don't touch that that is what I mean!! My daughters friends are throwing a barbecue today and invited me and Mike. I told them I would make the macaroni salad for them and well i still don't have it from the store and it does take some times to make. I am having a hard time thinking that it is almost 1pm and well they had told me noon. Now how can I have it ready for noon if it is almost 1pm?? Confusing but that is kids for you I guess. On another note over the last few days I have really reconnected with one of my oldest closest friends. It felt like we didn't miss a beat and well we always just kind of pick up where we left off. Some times out of the stress in your life there are very positive things that happen. recently in a disagreement with my daughter she told me how some of my "friends" aren't really my friends and how they don't want me around.. well that is fine... If you don't want me in your life I don't need you in mine! If that is the case than I am better off without you. My daughter had told me that she overheard a certain friend and my sister on the phone and she swears that the friend told my sister she doesn't want me around or at her house. Well OK then that is fine but be a big enough person to tell me yourself.  Anyway I do not always believe what my daughter says. She seems to think that just because I am not constantly on the phone with or hanging out with them all the time that I do not have friends. I know that my friends are my friends and that they are there when I need them and I am there when they need me.... if they ask. I know for a long time my life prevented me from being there. Then for a while I lived a thousand miles away and that made it hard to be there for them but when needed we made arrangements to get some one from NJ to FL when they were in need. There are people I talk to everyday and do not consider friends yet there are some that I barely talk to and they are more than friends they are more like family to me. I never have judged my relationships with my friends. By that I mean that not one of them are more important than the other. Some are closer or older and some are newer or not as close but they all matter to me. Friends play an intricate part in the life of a person and I would not trade my friends for the world. Most of us have gotten married had kids and have our own lives, but let one of us have a problem and all of a sudden we all come crawling out of the woodwork like little bugs comes to feast, yet are are the strands of support uplifting to the one in need. One of us may be the mad one and threaten to kill the person who hurt our friend, or be the one that is angry with God for taking the loved one from our friend, one of us will cry with them, one will be the jokester making everyone laugh, some one has to be the feeder and make us all eat, then there is the shoulderer. the shoulderer is the one who takes it upon themselves to sit back listen and take it all in. They shoulder the brunt of the emotion that is being projected and does not offer advice but rather stays strong. At some point this person will be the one in need and will not seek out the others to do for them as they have done for the others. This person puts a smile on her face and goes about her life like it is any other day even though she is dying inside. When she feels like her whole life is coming apart at the seems she still smiles and does or others as needed. It could be  death a problem with a child, or her spouse, it could be work problem but she never says a word. Last but not least there is the drama queen. You love to hate her, but you love her more. She is usually the first one there for you but has a way to turn it around to be about her. If she cant turn it to be about her she has to constantly one up whatever it is that you have going on. Shes also the one who you don't tell things to that you don't want anyone else to know. You love her and shes always there for you and you hold her dear to your heart. There is one more that many have in their close knit group of friends: the sister. This one if you are around the same age you didn't have a choice but to love shes your sister. You were born to the same family and she was your first playmate and first partner in crime. You became friends by choice. You could fight with your sister and kick her butt or her yours but no body ever better mess with your sister. You look out for one another and no matter how much you two grow apart you are never more than a phone call away. You can tell her anything and know that shes not going to tell anyone, except maybe mom. She is yout pal and confidant. She is your blood and often your lifeline. You have pictured yourself and these old and like the women on Golden Girls many times and I am sure you all know the lyrics to that show and they convey a special meaning to you. You also cannot listen to the theme from Friends without certain images of your friends popping into your head, Thats what friends are for and I am sure there are many more songs that you attribute to your friends. I know i started off on a different path with this entry but I realize that sometimes what you are going to say is not what you need to say. I hope all of my friends understand that I love them near or far, old or new, and close or not so close! You all play a very special part in my life and I thank God all the time for you all. You all seem to have a way of knowing when I need you even if I have been like the shoulderer and not said anything. There are things in my life that i am not proud of that you know about and there are things that I am so proud of I could burst. You have all been there through them all and I know will continue ot be there for me and I for you. We may not talk all the time but when that phone ringes we make sure we answer it. Sometimes we just have an overwhelming urge to call a certain friend or cant get them out of our mind and well that most liekly means we need to call them because there is something going on. We are connected like that. We oten know each other better than we know ourselves. Thank you one and all and if by some chance you don't want me in your life let me know and it can be arranged :) I am not trying to be glibb or sarcastic but I would hate to make one of my friends or people that I consider a friend unhappy. You willnot loose any lit in my eye but maybe actually be even brighter because the honesty is so much more important. There is so much more I wanted to say but now i am drawing a blank. Just please know I love you all and I am thankfull you are in my life. Just an after thought to thise who never bothered to become my friend or even get to know me enough to decide if you wanted to be my friend well it is your loss and well sorry you werent smart enough to make that choice!