Can I ever catch a break?!?!

I had very good intentions of keeping up with my blog. Just like all things lately in my life that fell apart too.No No No not like that. Things are still OK with Mike and my daughter is doing alright for now. She had a traumatic experience about 3 weeks ago and she is actually dealing much better than I had expected or could have even hoped she would! She is a great kid and a trooper as well. I firmly believe that child could do anything that she wanted to as long as she tries! Been taking care of Dave's arm and he is healing very nicely. I try to do range of motion with him daily and if he cant handle that then every other day. I do some resistance work with him and he doesn't even realize it. i guess that is good that he doesn't realize how hard he is working but he does see some of the benefits of his work. He can curl his arm some. Like if you hold your arm out in front of you and bring your hand towards your shoulder. I try to get him to work on touching each finger to his thumb but he gets very frustrated with his current lack of ability to accomplish this. I will have to make him work harder. And that right there leads me up to where I am now. In the hospital. Apparently I have diverticulitis. This is a disorder that causes little balloon like pockets in the lower bowel. These pockets can become inflamed and rupture causing a perforated bowel and spilling the contents of the lower intestines into the abdominal cavity. SO as nasty and gross as that sounds it is true. the bowel opened up and allowed fecal matter into my abdominal cavity. My body did exactly what it was supposed to and tried to fight the invading "crap". My body formed a wall and completely encapsulated the little invaders. Only problem there was that my body was not quite strong enough to  kill of the matter it encapsulated so it formed an abscess. a 6 centimeter abscess and massive amounts of pain to go along with it. I am not talking about little pain that seems huge it was huge all encompassing drop me to my knees tears running down my face type pain. So Mike made me come to the ER. I figured worse case scenario it was a sever bladder infection and they would give me some antibiotics and then be done. NOOOO not me I am actually OK though. I mean yes I have a lot and I do mean  a lot of pain and this condition can be very very serious I am  not that bad off. I could have become septic and been much worse off. The  surgeon is doing everything in his power to avoid sending me home with a colostomy bag. So they did a second ct scan of the abdomen and they found a large mass behind the one of my ovaries. It could be nothing but some fluid or it could be a tumor.. Point is that the surgeon wants an ultrasound of that area by the ovary and another area near where the perforation was because there is still some air and fluid and some other debris from the perforation.OK so that isn't so bad except that I can not tolerate any pressure on my abdomen at all right now so I am not able to have the ultrasound yet. Until he knows what that mass is I am still not allowed to have anything to eat or drink until the mass is identified and he decides how to proceed with it. I am frustrated because I have so many things and people depending on me all the time and I feel like because I am here and not at home that I am in someway letting them down. I know that this is irrational but it is how I feel all the same.  Since it will still be a bit before I get out of here and get back to healing up . Just wish me luck and a speedy recovery!!