Just an update on me!!

     Well I am still in the hospital and it is now Friday. I had the ultrasound done yesterday and it was unsuccessful. The tech tried everything to visualize the mass but it just said ha ha ha I am not going to let you see me and then it hid. Now all of a sudden my surgeon is not worried about finding out what the mass is. It went from You can not leave this hospital until we know what it is to we will just deal with it later. I do not know why this bothers me so much. I mean I want to go home right? I certainly do NOT want to stay here so why am I so worried about going home with out knowing? My infectious disease doctor came to see me later on last night. She wants me here until we know for sure what the mass is. My mom feels the same way. The infectious disease doctor (ID) asked me My opinion on the subject. I said well if I need to be here I need to be here. My fear is that if I go home too soon that there could be either rupture of the abscess or of the mass. This could be a very serious situation. I am a little scared to be honest. This is probably the most serious medical condition I have ever had. I have been doing some research while stuck here in the hospital and the things I have found out! Some have calmed me down and then the other side has really freaked me out! Back to the mass. I am worried because I have always has "problems" with my period. The only time in my life that it was regular was for the 3 months before I conceived my daughter. I went to multiple doctors to try to get it corrected. Two doctors told me I had PCOS  and then I had an ultrasound done and found that I do not have polycyctic ovaries. You  CAN NOT HAVE POLY CYSTIC OVARIAN SYNDROME WITH OUT HAVING POLY CYSTIC OVARIES!!  Common sense right? so the one doctor turned to me and said well it is the only thing that fits. Uhm no it isn't. I had been seeing a reproductive endocrinologist and she felt I had Cushing Disease or Cushings Syndrome. Well no one ever went and tried to find the tumors that would be secreting cortisol into my body so that went to hell. anyway I did have a point. Ah yes my point was that I have never had a normal reproductive history. The surgeon knows this and still says worry about it later grrr now to top it all off my normal pulse rate of apex 110 just dropped to 50???? OK I am not light headed, nauseous or anything like that. My BP was 121/60 that's great but uhm to have the pulse rate drop in half on the day i was supposed to be discharged?? WOW! Just one more this to stress about I guess. well this is where I stand right now NOWHERE CLOSER to an answer than I was a week ago!! frustrating yes nerve wracking yes worth getting this upset about probably not. I will have to have a the bowel resection done in a few months that is all I know but I am really tired all of a sudden and i am going to lie down for a bit.